urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade Vampire vampiredmade 2005-11-27T04:18:02Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade:3790 2005-11-27T04:18:02Z 2005-11-27T04:18:02Z yasmin the light when you lay here on my bed<br />i wonder <br />do you really know what it means to me<br />looking into your eyes<br />seeing beneath what others see<br />having your skin just lightly touch mine<br />feeling your warm breath against me<br />that spark<br />that rush<br />just goes inside me<br />our hand interlocking <br />as if they are exchanging our hearts<br />my breath and pulse race <br />harder<br />faster<br />yet i wouldn't want anything else<br />just for you to lay <br />to lay here<br />to lay here with me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade:3567 2005-10-29T20:23:06Z 2005-10-29T20:23:06Z i still remember all the things <br />that i've done<br />somethings i wished i never did<br />somethings that i was better off not doing<br />but it brought me <br />to myself<br />somethings that i did ended up just causing pain<br />pain for you <br />pain for me<br />but here i am<br />still here<br />sometimes i want to go back<br />i just cant bare it<br />bare to see me wasting away<br />away from me<br />away from you<br />away from reality<br />lost in my own little world<br />not caring about you<br />not caring about me<br />but i'm still here<br />weather you doubted me<br />weather i doubted me<br />i'm here<br />here for now <br />here for awhile<br />i'm here <br /><br /><br />dmp urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade:3261 2005-07-27T05:53:40Z 2005-07-27T05:53:40Z here with my friends<br />but i want more<br />i want you here<br />laying beside me<br />holding me close<br />rapping your arms around me<br />feeling me take in deep breaths<br />and feeling my tears fall to your skin<br />you turn me over <br />whiping my tears with your gentle touch<br />you kiss me ever so gently on the lips<br />bringing me closer to you<br />as you whisper three things<br />I Love You urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade:2913 2005-07-26T09:06:53Z 2005-07-26T09:06:53Z rock worried and all confused<br />walls are crushing down all around <br />hell is breaking through<br />mother bursting in tears<br />saying goodbye to her daughter<br />scared to death <br />scared for the unfullfilled life<br />gives her daughter one last hug<br />looks into her daughter's dark loving eyes <br />mother pulls her daughter closer <br />whispers in her ear "I Love You"<br />mother leaves<br />daughter is all alone<br />daughter breaks down<br />inside all to the outside<br />for hell is upon them both<br /><br />DMP urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade:2743 2005-03-13T20:21:00Z 2005-03-13T20:21:00Z its funny<br />how things are not worth anything <br />things aren't worth doing<br />but yet im not going to give up<br />maybe things will get worse <br />and maybe they'll get better<br />im not sure yet<br />i hurt now<br />in more ways than one<br />but thats my life not yours<br />all have their problems<br />all resort to nothingness<br />all is lost now<br />no hope <br />no faith<br />please someone save me<br />please someone save you<br />im here <br />not alone but it feels that way<br />im lost in this world<br />i dont know if i can be myself or not<br />it hurts so much now<br />i cant take it<br />but maybe i can take it tomorrow<br />maybe<br />i feel like crying and breaking down<br />but im to stuborn for that<br />i dont want to show that im weak<br />i wish i didnt care<br />i even wish i didnt care even for myself<br />but maybe tomorrow i can smile <br />maybe...... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade:2365 2005-03-12T03:26:37Z 2005-03-12T03:26:37Z Rock why do you have to be this way? <br />i thought you loved me<br />i thought i would never loose you<br />your hurting me<br />how can you not see this<br />i can't even look at you<br />this is not who you are<br />what happen to us? <br />to you?<br />to me?<br />we grew our seperate ways<br />but why this way?<br />i don't understand<br />your causing yourself pain<br />your doing this to be happy again<br />you won't this way<br />why are you doing this?<br />i can't help you now<br />i can't make you change<br />but hear me now<br />i will always care <br />i will always have hope<br />i will always love<br />i will always be here<br />you left <br />and now it's my turn to watch and see weather or not you come back<br />come back to being yourself urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade:2260 2005-02-19T18:02:07Z 2005-02-19T18:02:07Z stabbing and bleeding all over the floor shutting my eyes yelling screaming ignoring the pain from inside dizzy of all the confussion crying from the pain praying it will end extremly pissed off wanting to throw things sitting depressed in this chair wondering if this is it wondering if there is something next not wanting to blink every moment i feel another i dont want to all is blury al is lost all is gone no hope left nothing more to do tried and given nothing left all has said their good byes feeling so weak inside no point in fighting give up thats whats next is this how it's going to end just like this all alone all by myself urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade:1850 2005-02-01T17:40:49Z 2005-02-01T17:40:49Z rock NOT WHERE I NEED TO BE.<br /><br />feeling lost<br />lost inside<br />wondering how to explain myself<br />my actions<br />trying to make an excuse for them<br />for me<br />why am i this way<br />there is no such thing as changing<br />i am who i am<br />a girl <br />a boy<br />a dog <br />a cat<br />a woman<br />a man<br />im tall<br />im short<br />im anger<br />im happiness<br />a god <br />a devil<br />a sinner<br />a saint<br />im very thing<br />but yet im nothing<br />nothing to you<br />everthing to myself<br />i am more than what i show<br />i am anything and everything that i want to be<br />but to you im still worth nothing<br />everything i have <br />everything inside of me<br />is worthless to you<br />but to me im worth everything that you'll never be urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade:1685 2005-01-22T01:49:27Z 2005-01-22T01:49:27Z tears falling from my eyes<br />hope all fading away<br />losing things i love<br />unable to gain control<br />breaking down<br />inside and out<br />then from out of no where<br />you come <br />you give me reason<br />im flying high<br />there is no ground<br />more reasons <br />to improve myself <br />but not to change<br />i'm happy that im with you<br />you make me be glad that i am me<br />when i'm with you i have an unbreakable feeling<br />and thats something i never want to loose urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade:1295 2005-01-03T02:39:05Z 2005-01-03T02:39:05Z whithering and dying<br />decaying inside<br />breaking,shattering<br />fading away<br />all will be gone<br />all will be lost<br />disappearing<br />turning into black<br />falling from within me<br />thousand miles away<br />once was pure<br />uplifting and high spirited<br />seemed to banish<br />banish from everyone<br />even including me<br />words and now<br />even my actions<br />won't help<br />tearing apart<br />negativity now fills<br />confusion and being scared<br />now has control<br />going deeper<br />and deeper<br />into that black hole<br />my living hell<br />lying and de-sect<br />holding back the truth<br />spitting out lies<br />from within this hole<br />everything inside<br />rotten and dark<br />depression also lives here<br />saying things to protect<br />only myself<br />just mostly all lies<br />rudeness dwells near<br />this hallow place<br />nothing but cold<br />coldness everywhere<br />black and cold<br />is now my heart<br />now has control<br />going deeper<br />and deeper<br />into that black hole<br />my living hell<br />lying and de-sect<br />holding back the truth<br />spitting out lies<br />from within this hole<br />everything inside<br />rotten and dark<br />depression also lives here<br />saying things to protect<br />only myself<br />just mostly all lies<br />rudeness dwells near<br />this hallow place<br />nothing but cold<br />coldness everywhere<br />black and cold<br />is now my heart<br />DMP urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade:1215 2004-12-31T19:56:57Z 2004-12-31T19:56:57Z times running out<br />clocks are ticking<br />hearts are breaking<br />new year is awaiting<br />new year resolutions are in the making<br />people counting<br />number decreasing<br />will it be a good year??? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade:925 2004-12-31T04:28:13Z 2004-12-31T04:28:13Z Rock/Metal all alone in a world of hate and bloodshed<br />tears falling from those eyes that cared <br />bleeding from wounds that will never heal<br />gasping for the last breaths<br />walking among the living<br />time never ending<br />no heart beating<br />no laughter to hear<br />silence is the way<br />paths that lead to no where<br />no where to go<br />nothing to do<br />no one to see <br />all is forgotten <br />this is my reality<br />this is my life <br />this is my nightmare<br />~dmp~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade:605 2004-12-31T04:27:09Z 2004-12-31T04:27:09Z wrapped into two bodies<br />sharing each others heat beat<br />knowing each others thoughts<br />bodies touching<br />lips connecting<br />we both yearn <br />both ache<br />knowing what we both want<br />touching<br />awaiting<br />breathing harder<br />hearts pounding<br />adeline rushing<br />shaking<br />clingy to each other<br />whimpering<br />holding<br />never letting go<br />~DMP~ urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:vampiredmade:398 2004-12-31T04:25:09Z 2004-12-31T04:25:09Z wraped into two bodies<br />sharing each others heat beat<br />knowing each others thoughts<br />bodies touching<br />lips connecting<br />we both yern <br />both ache<br />knowing what we both want<br />touching<br />awaiting<br />breathing harder<br />hearts pounding<br />aderline rushing<br />shaking<br />clingy to each other<br />whimpering<br />holding<br />never letting go<br />~DMP~