Below are the 14 most recent journal entries recorded in vampiredmade's LiveJournal:

Saturday, November 26th, 2005
11:09 pm	you when you lay here on my bed i wonder do you really know what it means to me looking into your eyes seeing beneath what others see having your skin just lightly touch mine feeling your warm breath against me that spark that rush just goes inside me our hand interlocking as if they are exchanging our hearts my breath and pulse race harder faster yet i wouldn't want anything else just for you to lay to lay here to lay here with me Current Mood: nothing can describe Current Music: yasmin the light (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 29th, 2005
4:22 pm	past and the present i still remember all the things that i've done somethings i wished i never did somethings that i was better off not doing but it brought me to myself somethings that i did ended up just causing pain pain for you pain for me but here i am still here sometimes i want to go back i just cant bare it bare to see me wasting away away from me away from you away from reality lost in my own little world not caring about you not caring about me but i'm still here weather you doubted me weather i doubted me i'm here here for now here for awhile i'm here dmp (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
1:46 am	here with my friends but i want more i want you here laying beside me holding me close rapping your arms around me feeling me take in deep breaths and feeling my tears fall to your skin you turn me over whiping my tears with your gentle touch you kiss me ever so gently on the lips bringing me closer to you as you whisper three things I Love You (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 26th, 2005
5:01 am	awaiting worried and all confused walls are crushing down all around hell is breaking through mother bursting in tears saying goodbye to her daughter scared to death scared for the unfullfilled life gives her daughter one last hug looks into her daughter's dark loving eyes mother pulls her daughter closer whispers in her ear "I Love You" mother leaves daughter is all alone daughter breaks down inside all to the outside for hell is upon them both DMP Current Music: rock (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 13th, 2005
3:15 pm	maybe its funny how things are not worth anything things aren't worth doing but yet im not going to give up maybe things will get worse and maybe they'll get better im not sure yet i hurt now in more ways than one but thats my life not yours all have their problems all resort to nothingness all is lost now no hope no faith please someone save me please someone save you im here not alone but it feels that way im lost in this world i dont know if i can be myself or not it hurts so much now i cant take it but maybe i can take it tomorrow maybe i feel like crying and breaking down but im to stuborn for that i dont want to show that im weak i wish i didnt care i even wish i didnt care even for myself but maybe tomorrow i can smile maybe...... (Comment on this)
Friday, March 11th, 2005
10:19 pm	Weather or Not why do you have to be this way? i thought you loved me i thought i would never loose you your hurting me how can you not see this i can't even look at you this is not who you are what happen to us? to you? to me? we grew our seperate ways but why this way? i don't understand your causing yourself pain your doing this to be happy again you won't this way why are you doing this? i can't help you now i can't make you change but hear me now i will always care i will always have hope i will always love i will always be here you left and now it's my turn to watch and see weather or not you come back come back to being yourself Current Music: Rock (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 19th, 2005
1:01 pm	stabbing and bleeding all over the floor shutting my eyes yelling screaming ignoring the pain from inside dizzy of all the confussion crying from the pain praying it will end extremly pissed off wanting to throw things sitting depressed in this chair wondering if this is it wondering if there is something next not wanting to blink every moment i feel another i dont want to all is blury al is lost all is gone no hope left nothing more to do tried and given nothing left all has said their good byes feeling so weak inside no point in fighting give up thats whats next is this how it's going to end just like this all alone all by myself (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 1st, 2005
12:33 pm	NOT WHERE I NEED TO BE. feeling lost lost inside wondering how to explain myself my actions trying to make an excuse for them for me why am i this way there is no such thing as changing i am who i am a girl a boy a dog a cat a woman a man im tall im short im anger im happiness a god a devil a sinner a saint im very thing but yet im nothing nothing to you everthing to myself i am more than what i show i am anything and everything that i want to be but to you im still worth nothing everything i have everything inside of me is worthless to you but to me im worth everything that you'll never be Current Mood: determined Current Music: rock (Comment on this)
Friday, January 21st, 2005
8:43 pm	one feeling to another tears falling from my eyes hope all fading away losing things i love unable to gain control breaking down inside and out then from out of no where you come you give me reason im flying high there is no ground more reasons to improve myself but not to change i'm happy that im with you you make me be glad that i am me when i'm with you i have an unbreakable feeling and thats something i never want to loose (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 2nd, 2005
9:24 pm	Black whithering and dying decaying inside breaking,shattering fading away all will be gone all will be lost disappearing turning into black falling from within me thousand miles away once was pure uplifting and high spirited seemed to banish banish from everyone even including me words and now even my actions won't help tearing apart negativity now fills confusion and being scared now has control going deeper and deeper into that black hole my living hell lying and de-sect holding back the truth spitting out lies from within this hole everything inside rotten and dark depression also lives here saying things to protect only myself just mostly all lies rudeness dwells near this hallow place nothing but cold coldness everywhere black and cold is now my heart now has control going deeper and deeper into that black hole my living hell lying and de-sect holding back the truth spitting out lies from within this hole everything inside rotten and dark depression also lives here saying things to protect only myself just mostly all lies rudeness dwells near this hallow place nothing but cold coldness everywhere black and cold is now my heart DMP (Comment on this)
Friday, December 31st, 2004
2:53 pm	times running out clocks are ticking hearts are breaking new year is awaiting new year resolutions are in the making people counting number decreasing will it be a good year??? (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 30th, 2004
11:27 pm	all alone in a world of hate and bloodshed tears falling from those eyes that cared bleeding from wounds that will never heal gasping for the last breaths walking among the living time never ending no heart beating no laughter to hear silence is the way paths that lead to no where no where to go nothing to do no one to see all is forgotten this is my reality this is my life this is my nightmare ~dmp~ Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: Rock/Metal (Comment on this)
11:21 pm	wrapped into two bodies sharing each others heat beat knowing each others thoughts bodies touching lips connecting we both yearn both ache knowing what we both want touching awaiting breathing harder hearts pounding adeline rushing shaking clingy to each other whimpering holding never letting go ~DMP~ (Comment on this)
11:21 pm	wraped into two bodies sharing each others heat beat knowing each others thoughts bodies touching lips connecting we both yern both ache knowing what we both want touching awaiting breathing harder hearts pounding aderline rushing shaking clingy to each other whimpering holding never letting go ~DMP~ (Comment on this)